Long time....

Wow! Its been a long time since I last posted and visited my blog. So many things have happened and i'm in the process of moving on... Its hard but I have to.

... written by a guy ...

got this from infinity again. this is both for all the guys and girls out there...

- We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging that fact that we're still sitting there.

- We don't care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that can't wait til the morning.

- Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it!

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

- Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood I'm in.

- Let us pay for You!
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."

- Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

- You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt or put on every kind of make-up you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's or my shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

- Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

- Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

- Don't talk about "how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is infront of us"

It's boring, and we don't care. You have friends for that.

- Whatever happened to the word "handsome/beautiful?"

I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey Handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand, I'm not saying I wouldn't like it either

- Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change. Ditch his sorry ASS, he's a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who you will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes... and say "I Love You"
..... and actually mean it!

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Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree.

Girls repost this if you think it's cute.

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that ll the girls that read this will repost this.

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*Holding Hands*
Girls: If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
Guys: Grab it if it happens more than once.

*Cuddling*
Girls: When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
Guys: Automatically move closer to her,

*Movies*
Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys: Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving Each Other*
Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it!

*Laying Below The Stars*
Girls: When you're both laying under the star, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heartbeat.
Guys: Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

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very sweet, isn't it? aaawww..... (and that's not sarcasm!)

... old journal entry on love and courtship ...

i was reading one of my old journals yesterday and i came across on this one entry i wrote dated March 21, 2007. i just had to place it here after i have written somewhere here in my blog that i don't understand this kind of "love" that you give to another person other than a family or a friend. i still do not understand it totally but i am getting there especially now that i have been experiencing it in an intense level in the present. there's something written about courtship too. i know i sound like i'm talking about something scientific or whatever. but, this is how i talk, for now. i am editing some parts of what i have written in my journal but generally, it's the same entry.

this one i wrote when a guy was courting me back then. turns out he was a jerk. i thought he was nice and a bit of a challenge. i was totally wrong. he was just one of those insecure jerks. good thing i busted his a**! hehehe...

and, now here's another guy who is courting me. he is still a challenge for me but, i think he is the real deal. and i kind of remembered him when i read this old entry.

this is kinda mushy so be prepared. i can't believe i wrote this either because i get queasy when i am the one writing or saying those mushy words. hehehe...mush-fest! so, here it goes:

i'm getting confused and tired with this game called "courtship", or is it "love"? i don't think courtship is for me. its a game that i don't have any patience. of course, not all of the process of courtship i don't like. there is this getting-to-know-each-other stage. i like that because i'd like to know who that person is. is he someone who would cherish me or us forever or would he just play around? does he truly love me or he just loves himself? would i love him eventually or not? would we jive together or not? those essential things when we are together.... the details. but, otherwise, the game of courtship is not truly enticing to me after i have just experienced it with this certain "playing guy". its very confusing. its fun in the early stage, but, eventually it gets tiring. i loose patience. of course, on the part of the man, i can get it when he doesn't tell in the first few days or weeks because there is this fear of rejection (or he is just playing). so, he doesn't tell first. but, if it continues for months, and he seems like he's just playing intensely, it gets tiring. he thinks its cute, but its not...not really.

but, then again, when emotions come in, that's a whole new ball game. it complicates things further. it becomes an emotional and psychological rollercoaster! you don't know if you're going left or right, up or down, or sideways. it blurs your mind and lets your heart wreak havoc on everything; your principles, your routine, everything! you'd think there would be no solution to this chaos. there would be many sleepless nights or just smiling by yourself when you think no one is watching. should you go or not? get swayed by this flood of emotions or not? and you keep thinking and thinking but reason and logic are already lost in this flood and chaos. what do you do? what will you decide? what is it that is making you go crazy? this is not me at all. and then, you see it! you get it!

Love. Love is the culprit.
You know when you are just playing.
But, when Love is involved, everything
just seems to blur and you feel like you're
either walking on clouds or hot coals.

You feel it everywhere!
It touches you in the most simplest places in
your being.
You'll feel like being lost in that heavenly emotions.
No words can describe it yet you'll feel like you'd
like to put it into words, into poetry, maybe a song.
You'll feel like singing all the time and just fly or float
on air.
Be everywhere and spread your wings, spread yourself
and share it to everyone.
Drown them in it so they'll feel what you're feeling so
they'll understand and they can share it to anyone
they meet.
It feels wonderful and yet disheartening.

Love. It boggles the mind.
No one truly understands it.
And yet everyone wants it and needs it.

You'd like to spread it like the smooth
and creaminess of butter on toast.
Or just licking off that sweet, white icing
on your fingertips.

It could also be sensual that you don't know
what to do with it, as it arouses you to
high heavens.
Making your heart beat faster.
Always wanting to touch something, someone,
somebody... to be nearer, to be closer.

there! i couldn't really end it because it was getting too sensual. hahaha... but, definitely, the words i've written here are what i am feeling when Love comes knocking. i hope this present guy is truly real. i'm ready to take a risk again. if i get hurt, i'll just stand up again and move on. and if/when this is real, then, good for us. (^_^)

... message from the heavens ...

i just want to share this to anyone who is willing to read it. very touching! i got this from another blog, titled infinity. please do visit her blog. she's such a wonderful writer and her entries are insightful and funny. read on.

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Effective Immediately : please be aware that there are changes YOU need to make in YOUR life. These changes need to be completed in order that I may fulfill My promises to you to grant you peace, joy and happiness in this life. I apologize for any inconvenience, but after all that I am doing, this seems very little to ask of you. Please, follow these 10 guidelines

1. QUIT WORRYING: Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sit and worry. Have you forgotten that I am here to take all your burdens and carry them for you? Or do you just enjoy fretting over every little thing that comes your way?

2. PUT IT ON THE LIST: Something needs done or taken care of. Put it on the list. No, not YOUR list. Put it on MY to-do-list. Let ME be the one to take care of the problem. I can ‘ t help you until you turn it over to Me. And although My to-do-list is long, I am after all… God. I can take care of anything you put into My hands. In fact, if the truth were ever really known, I take care of a lot of things for you that you never even realize.

3. TRUST ME: Once you ‘ ve given your burdens to Me, quit trying to take them back. Trust in Me. Have the faith that I will take care of all your needs, your problems and your trials. Problems with the kids? Put them on My list. Problem with finances? Put it on My list. Problems with your emotional roller coaster? For My sake, put it on My list. I want to help you. All you have to do is ask.

4. LEAVE IT ALONE: Don ‘ t wake up one morning and say, “Well, I ‘ m feeling much stronger now, I think I can handle it from here.” Why do you think you are feeling stronger now? It ‘ s simple. You gave Me your burdens and I ‘ m taking care of them. I also renew your strength and cover you in my peace. Don ‘ t you know that if I give you these problems back, you will be right back where you started? Leave them with Me and forget about them. Just let Me do my job.

5. TALK TO ME: I want you to forget a lot of things. Forget what was making you crazy. Forget the worry and the fretting because you know I ‘ m in control. But there ‘ s one thing I pray you never forget. Please, don ‘ t forget to talk to Me - OFTEN! I love YOU! I want to hear your voice. I want you to include Me in on the things going on in your life. I want to hear you talk about your friends and family. Prayer is simply you having a conversation with Me. I want to be your dearest friend.

6. HAVE FAITH: I see a lot of things from up here that you can ‘ t see from where you are. Have faith in Me that I know what I ‘ m doing. Trust Me; you wouldn ‘ t want the view from My eyes. I will continue to care for you, watch over you, and meet your needs. You only have to trust Me. Although I have a much bigger task than you, it seems as if you have so much trouble just doing your simple part. How hard can trust be?

7. SHARE: You were taught to share when you were only two years old. When did you forget? That rule still applies. Share with those who are less fortunate than you. Share your joy with those who need encouragement. Share your laughter with those who haven ‘ t heard any in such a long time. Share your tears with those who have forgotten how to cry. Share your faith with those who have none.

8. BE PATIENT: I managed to fix it so in just one lifetime you could have so many diverse experiences. You grow from a child to an adult, have children, change jobs many times, learn many trades, travel to so many places, meet thousands of people, and experience so much. How can you be so impatient then when it takes Me a little longer than you expect to handle something on My to-do-list? Trust in My timing, for My timing is perfect. Just because I created the entire universe in only six days, everyone thinks I should always rush, rush, rush.

9. BE KIND: Be kind to others, for I love them just as much as I love you. They may not dress like you, or talk like you, or live the same way you do, but I still love you all. Please try to get along, for My sake. I created each of you different in some way. It would be too boring if you were all identical. Please, know I love each of your differences.

10. LOVE YOURSELF: As much as I love you, how can you not love yourself? You were created by me for one reason only — to be loved, and to love in return. I am a God of Love. Love Me. Love your neighbors. But also love yourself. It makes My heart ache when I see you so angry with yourself when things go wrong. You are very precious to me. Don ‘ t ever forget……

Note: I received this from a friend and I have no idea who wrote it, but I was so touched by it, that I had to share it with you. I hope that you will be blessed by it and will share it with others.

Touch someone with your love. Rather than focus upon the thorns of life, smell the roses and count your blessings!

... regret or not ...

i try to live my life without regrets. and so far, i have not regretted one thing that has happened in my life. although, i have lived in a cautious way, everything seems to turn out just the way it should be, for me anyway. just the right pacing and at just the right time. just when i thought that i am being left behind, eventually, i see the purpose of it. in the end, i have learned from that particular experience. when i am confused about certain things and situations, i always ask around. do my "research" and either follow the facts or follow my instincts or follow both if they jive together. they all have consequences whichever i choose to follow and i deal with them. so far, most of what i have imagined my life would be, i have already experienced or am going thru them now.

however, i do see that i do regret some things that i didn't do earlier:

one, is i lived my life too cautiously. (but then again, if i didn't, i would not have learned to let go and decide on my own little by little.)

two, i could have been more diligent and more hardworking so i could have saved more and have done more. (then again, i would have become sick always from too much work. and i would not have enjoyed the time i spent with my family and friends.)

three, i could have had those voice lessons that i've always wanted to take. and the guitar and flute lessons too. yeah, i should have done that earlier. good thing that i was able to have some piano/organ lessons. and now i am trying to learn to play the guitar (my staff is helping me). now, for those voice lessons... hmmm... i think i can make it next year. definitely, will take those voice lessons....

... Your Universe by Rico Blanco ...

i can't help myself from playing and playing this song and MTV of Rico Blanco's Your Universe. you can't help yourself but fall in love with this song. here is his video of Your Universe.

here are the lyrics for Your Universe:

Tell me something
When the rain falls on my face
How do you quickly replace
It with
A golden summer smile?

Tell me something
When i'm feelin' tired and afraid
How do you know just what to say
To make
Everything alright?

Chorus:
I don't think that you even realize
The joy you make me feel when i'm inside
Your universe
You hold me like i'm the one who's precious
I hate to break it to you but its just
The other way around
You can thank your stars all you want but
I'll always be the lucky one

Tell me something
When i'm 'bout to lose control
How do you patiently hold
My hand
And gently calm me down?

Tell me something
When you sing and when you laugh
Why do i always photograph
My heart
Flyin way above the clouds?

... best in the morning ...

i woke up very early in the morning today. i turned on my laptop and started writing an email for my friend. and i surfed the net just a bit. after that, i went to the bathroom to finally wash up my face. and i suddenly remembered those surveys or quizzes that you get thru email or Friendster or blogs where they asked, what part of the day do you feel/look best? I didn’t quite know what or how to answer that question. I know, for some it’s quite mundane and probably a silly question to ask and actually to reflect on. but, when I saw myself in the mirror this morning, I just had this reflective feeling with a mixture of eureka! mixed in. it wasn’t like an earth-shaking experience but just a realization of myself. when I saw my reflection in the mirror, that question popped inside my head. I think I know the answer now. I feel/look best in the morning. I truly feel that. Even with those morning crisps (muta. hehehe) in my eyes, those baggy eyes, and dark circles around them. Lips that are a bit chappy. but, my eyes! my eyes were awake and thoughtful. that’s the real me. no pretensions. no make-up. no blow-dried hair. Although, I rarely do that. Its hard work, blow-drying ones hair. (hahaha) I was just being me. Simply Me. and I liked what I saw. I was still pretty being like that. I’m not being vain or anything like that. it was a realization that I still looked okay and probably the best by being simply me.