Bored...

living...

i am just so bored. or maybe sleepy. or maybe tired. or maybe all of them. i have been at the store since 6:45am. and the time now is 7:05pm. i'll be here till closing time at 12:00mn because of stupidity. i totally forgot that i gave my cousin his day-off today. then i told my aunt yesterday that she can have her day-off today too. i totally forgot the date today. *sigh* so now, i have no reliever for the cashier. my mind is just going blank sometimes especially when it comes to dates. i need a rest soon.


dreaming...

i am dreaming that i am at the Spa on my birthday, being pampered and getting all those massages and stuff.... that would be totally relaxing.... haaayyy......

Headaches....

living....

my head is aching pretty badly earlier, but its subsiding now. i have been staring at the computer for about 2 hours. i have been surfing the net, browsing some news, checking my emails and other stuff. i'm kind of bored and at the same time, i'm still thinking about what some of our staff told me. it's sooooo disappointing! i'm so disappointed! i know its part of life and part of owning a business that you will encounter people, either customers or staff or suppliers and others, who are not trustworthy. i'm just so disappointed with this particular person because his work has been consistently very good. we trust him with one of our stations and with being observant of what's happening around our store. turns out, he has been doing some stuff behind our backs. stuff that are against our store policy and his attitude towards some of his co-workers is not that professional. i'll try to correct this but, it will all be upto him if he will accept his wrong doings or not and try to change for the better or not. he has toooo much pride to the border of him not noticing that he is already being hurtful to others eventhough he was the first one who started it. i am truly disappointed!

dreaming....

i am now dreaming or wishing that i am in Boracay already for that vacation that i very much need right now. i need a change of surroundings. i need to rejuvinate myself or this headache might not go away for awhile. i cant wait to go there already!

helpless....

living....

i feel so helpless. my parents scolded me for not being able to pay the rent on time. what can i do? i did all the cost-cutting i can do but there are just not enough customers. there are still a lot of expenses but we tried to lower it. my aunt and i talked about it and we're trying to do some cost-cutting schemes already and we're truly saving up for that. i am so overwhelmed with so may responsibilities! i do the operations, some of the paperworks, managing 2 stores, and doing the marketing and pr, and managing the finances. what do they expect from me pa? that i would be superwoman? goodness! sometimes, i ask myself, am i still not doing a good job doing all those responsibilities at the same time? what else do they want me to do? cut myself in 3 so they could give me more responsibilities and work to do?

i am organizing my plans now to do what i really want to do. i will eventually move away and go on my own way. i never signed up for this. but, since this is family, i am doing everything that i can do. but, they are asking too much from me. i feel like i am being abused already. seriously, if this doesn't stop, i'll go crazy!


dreaming....

in my head, i wish i were at a beach somewhere, meditating or simply relaxing. clearing my mind and finding peace. no worries even for just a few days to retain my sanity. walking slowly on the beach or laughing away with a friend or two while munching some yummy food and drinking iced teas. i just want to relax.

thinking....

maybe, the reason why i still cant sleep and feeling restless is because
my mind is still wandering around. lots of thoughts in my head....

this photo i took reflects what's inside my head today

*note: please do not copy or
use this photo without my
permission. you can use this
photo but please link my site
with this photo. thank you.

Hectic Morning....

we finished taping part of our marketing earlier this morning. it was pretty cold and very windy outside. but still, the weather was great! the sun was up. blue blue sky with specs of white
clouds. it was really wonderful to be out that early in the morning with that kind of scene. it was very refreshing! i miss that. tranquil and yet such positive vibes around us. everyone working
yet having fun. fabulous morning indeed!

one of our barista and our kitchen head was with me during the taping. it was fun for us three! we keep making up stories and just chuckling away about what will happen during the taping. hahaha... we were just standing around and yet we were having fun.

in the end, we were taped last and our "feature" will be shown this Monday. my nerves slight melted away but my barista got a little tongue-tied when we were interviewed. however, she said she still had fun. it was an experience for us three.

after that, off to make sandwiches for another taping for another establishment in our area. my friend got me to sponsor food for the taping. we were able to tour his resort. i was with another staff this time. by the time we got to his resort, it was really sunny and hot. there was just some breeze now and then. his resort was kind of interesting though. they have horses (love those wonderful creatures!), some cottages and suites, a pool, some team-building activities and lots more. it was a quiant little resort. my staff and i liked the place.

however, i just could not take it anymore. my eyes were in sleepy mode already from sleeping late (because of work) and waking up very early in the morning for the taping. i dont know how those guys (working in that network) could do it. i have to praise them for their energy, patience and work ethics. they are truly amazing! they havent fully slept in days and yet they were able to do their jobs well. and they are also very nice. such wonderful and creative people.

after all that, i got home a few hours ago and i thought i would be able to sleep because i'm so tired. but, 6 hours later, i'm still wide awake and typing away. i think i'm still restless but my mind and body are not functioning well anymore so i'm just staying home and just entertain myself surfing the net, watching videos and stuff. hopefully, i'll get really tired and really sleepy and, at last, be able to sleep soundly. but, before that, i still have to finish some work.

... sleepy...

sleep is something that am lacking.
sleep can make me think clearly.
sleep can help me relax a bit.
sleep could make me sane again.

sleep......

i need to sleep....

but, i can't. i think, i am becoming an Insomniac.

I'm Yours ... definitely Jason Mraz... I'm Yours!

From one of my favorite musicians and one of my fave songs...

*sigh*

who would not fall in love with this guy?