allergy test

i just had my skin allergy test a few days ago, and just as i have
suspected, there are a lot of things that i have to avoid. and it
includes my favorite foods! argh! chocolates, ice cream, pasta
and cheese.... huhuhu....

and the few fruits that i like eating, well, i am not allowed to eat
them too.... huhuhu....

but, i am most allergic to is dust, dust mites, molds, insecticides,
cockroaches (this is ok though because i am afraid of them. hehehe),
pine trees ( good luck to me 'coz we have lots of them around
our neighborhood) and grass. Great! i can't stay outdoors and when
i'm inside our house and store, everything has to be super clean. Just
my luck!

in our house, my bed, pillows, surroundings, airconditioning and
electric fan has to be cleaned ... and vacuumed once or twice
a week. *sigh*

i feel like i'm too sick and i don't like that feeling at all. it's a good
thing though that i went to a specialist already because the doctor
told me that i should have gone to a specialist a looooong, long
time ago so that i could have been 'cured' from my allergies by
then. she (the doctor) told me too that its a good thing that i
had my allergies checked because from all the symptoms that
i told her, my allergies could have alleviated to asthma and
that could've been worse for me. *whew*

oh! and then my cousin texted me and asked how my allergies
were and what were the findings. i told her that i was not allowed
to eat chocolate. and then she reminded me that we had a pact,
along with my other cousins, my sis and bro, that we are all going
to the Chocolate Feast at Manila Peninsula this December.
i have been looking forward to that for years... aaarrrgghh...

i truly love chocolates!

well, i am still under observation, so maybe when December
comes my allergies might subside by then and i would be
allowed by my doctor to at least attend ... and eat ... at the
Chocolate Feast.

this is like, forced diet for me. *sigh* however, thats good for me
anyway because i think my health has been failing lately and
i really have to loose weight, so i truly need this. i have to start
exercising too. i'm just too lazy. hehehe.... but, anyway, i think
this is a good start for me. i tend to forget to take care of myself
when i am working. the signs have been there but i just keep
putting them aside. i think my friend is right. i have become a
workaholic. but, then again, that's a different story.

lomo-forever!

oh my gulay!

my sister and i just bought a HOLGA Camera!

Yes! Yes! Yes!

and it was cheaper than the one I saw in HongKong and
the one being sold here in the Philippines. we just have
to buy film so we could start shooting. Woohoo!

good thing too that the film for the HOLGA Camera is
being sold at Fuji Film here and they can also develop
it here. Another, Wooohoo!

i now have three (3) Lomo Cameras. FishEye 2 and the
Action Splash (with 4 lenses).

can't wait to try the HOLGA Camera! we're going to buy
the film this Sunday.

now, if I could only find the photos I took with the FishEye 2
camera, i'll post some of them here. i just love playing around
with those cameras. very kewl!

rejuvinating bangkok

i was in bangkok, thailand last week and it has been a rejuvinating experience for me. it has opened my eyes and ignited this spirit within me that i have been looking for.

the kindness and spirit of the King,

the wonderful and stimulating sights of bangkok,

the niceness and spirit of the people of bangkok,

they are all so inspiring!

its no wonder that there are a lot of people and tourists who keeps going back to thailand. it is such a lovely place.

i will definitely go back there. i love it there!

direction

i am lacking in direction right now. i'm a bit lost. i've lost my passion. i just want to go to a secluded place, surrounded by nature, and just.... meditate? nah, maybe, just let my mind wonder around for awhile. maybe by wo(a)ndering around, i'll be able to find something. i cant seem to find any meaning to what i have been doing lately. actually, i know what i am doing and why i am doing those things. i just lost my passion. my mind is muddled. i am mentally-, emotionally-, and physically-drained. its hard for me to get up in the morning. everything just seems so hard to do. i want to get away... away from everything right now.

i look horrible... i feel horrible! and i'm bringing it to our store. i think my staff feels it too. i don't want them to feel it, but its there. i just cant help it.

i know i should be feeling wonderful because there have been a lot of blessings coming in. i just don't know why i am feeling like this. i'm in a rut.

hopefully, our trip to bangkok will help me. change of environment, change of ambiance.... just simply a change from my routine.

could my meds be affecting my moods? i think so. i need to flush them out of my system immediately. i need a change. i need to change soon or i'll go insane!

business is business....

giving trust in business is sometimes hard to do. you think that you have formed an alliance, or at least, a friendship with a co-business owner, and then they stab you in the back. in the end, their true colors will appear and its all upto how you will be able to cope up with their betrayal. their friendship with you is just a facade, a means to get the information they need for their own business. i thought this person was different. unfortunately, she's just one of them. full trust could not be given to her. she'll ask for your trust, and i gave it to her. we had an agreement, but that agreement only lasted for two months on her part. i guess, when greediness comes in, trust is just shoved into a corner.

business is business still for her.... no friendship and trust required. only backstabbing and greediness are needed.

my first post

at last, i am able to write something here...

well, actually, i still have nothing to write. my mind is still clouded. i'm just bored and wanted to try this blog. i'm not much of a writer or a blogger. i don't think that anyone would be interested to read my posts. although, i like reading blogs. hopefully, i can make mine as interesting as theirs. if not, well then, i'll just have to improve myself then.

my mind is clouding up again. must be the meds i drank for my allergies. i'm so sleepy! but, here i am, still at work. good thing though that my staff can do all the stations here at the cafe now. i can just relax and just supervise their work. but, i'd really like to go home now and sleep-off the meds i took. it doesn't help too that i still have skin allergies. its been 4 days already and my allergies just wont go away. *sigh*

eniwez, have to go. or i might fall sleep.