... on His plan for your mate ...

i got this from my friend's blog where she got it from her friend too. it inspired me and got me thinking that the waiting that i've been doing is truly worth it when in the end i would have the Perfect kind of LOVE that i've been looking for.

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ON HIS PLAN FOR YOUR MATE

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to a deep relationship with someone, to be loved thoroughly, and exclusively. But God to a christian says,

"No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and contented with being loved by Me, with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me, to have an intensely personal relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with one another until you are satisfied with Me, exclusive of any other desire or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing. Allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the best! Please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep watching Me, expect the greatest things, keep listening, and learning the things I tell you. You just wait...that's all...don't worry...Don't look around at the things others have gotten or that I have given them. Don't look at the things you want. Just keep looking off and away, up to Me, or you will miss what I want to show you. And when you are ready, I'll surprise you with a LOVE far more wonderful than you can dream. You cannot see it until you are ready ...and until the one I have for you is ready. (I'm working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time). Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me...and the LIFE I have planned for you...you won't be able to experience the LOVE that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and is thus PERFECT LOVE. I want to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me to enjoy materially and completely the Everlasting union of beauty, perfection and Love that I offer you. Know that I LOVE YOU utterly, believe and be satisfied..."

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... lost and hidden ...

a thought.....

did you see me? no, i don't think anyone would see me. i'm good at hiding. being hidden is sometimes good. no one would bother you. you'll have the freedom to move around and no one would care. but, would you like that? like to have no one care for you? won't that be lonely? would you like to be alone? it won't be forever, right? being alone? did you choose to be alone? would that make you happy?

no, i don't want to be alone. but, sometimes, i have to be left alone for awhile. to find some time to think. to find myself. to be who i really am. to be the real me. i don't want to hide anymore. but i lost myself somewhere while living. now, i'm having a hard time looking for my pieces. where have i left me? where have i lost me? please understand. when i do leave, please do not look for me yet, for i will come back for sure. i just needed to look for me out there. i need to complete myself. i hope i will recognize myself when i'm complete. i promise i will come back. but, i also hope that you will recognize me too and not judge me for who i really am when i come back. because i don't want to hide anymore. it's so lonely being hidden. i don't want to be alone anymore.

... jason mraz: we sing, we dance, we steal things ...

i cannot sleep. i'm going to babble on again. my mind is so awake. i've got a lot of thinking to do. so please be patient with me. i just can't stop writing. my train of thought is everywhere so just read on at your own risk.

i'm listening to Jason Mraz' new album now, "We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things" and he's done it again. he's just amazing! i am still astounded at how good he is at writing those words, pure poetry. and the melodies and his voice? so, great! i especially love the track "Details in the Fabric" featuring James Morrison. i feel the sadness and a hint of hope in it. this is his best album yet, i think. i felt a lot of powerful emotions listening to this album. the album felt like i was riding a rollercoaster. after listening to the whole album, you cannot help yourself but repeat the whole thing again. its quite addictive! it's as if you're with him, beside him, experiencing whatever he went through when he did this. it's just incredible!

... wasabi ...

i just read a blog post about ice cream, and oh, how i love ice cream! if it wasn't for my being lactose-intolerant, i would be eating ice cream almost every day. there's something comforting about eating ice cream. i love its texture and this smooth and creamy feeling that it leaves in my mouth. i love how it is so soothing and relaxing. it should have the right sweetness, creaminess and temperature and its perfect! my favorite flavours are coffee, green tea and vanilla. i know, i know. those are boring flavours. but, i don't like too much trimmings with my ice cream, like sprinkles, brownies and stuff. though, i love nuts and unusual flavours with my ice cream. however, i must admit, i have not been that adventurous with the flavours. but, i have always wondered if there is a wasabi-flavoured ice cream out there? or maybe just a hint of it? i love wasabi! what kind of sensations would it induce? maybe i could mix it up with vanilla or any nut-flavoured ice cream like macadamia? hmmm... maybe i should try it. time to experiment!

... ingrid michaelson ...

i finally have the Girls and Boys album of Ingrid Michaelson!

i've been waiting for months to get this album. its not available here in the Philippines that's why i had to wait for my sister to send me one from the US, and it's worth the wait. i've been listening to it thru my mp3 player for 3 straight days. i love "The Way I Am" and "Breakable"! her voice is very refreshing to hear and her music, well, pleasant to the ears.

here is the lyrics to one of my faves:

The Way I Am

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

visit her site at Ingrid Michaelson

... restless ...

i just felt restless suddenly. there have been some events in my life that got me thinking. there have also been some events happening with some of my friends' lives and they have affected me in both positive and negative ways. one is about love... receiving and giving it, unconditionally. and the other is about career... living your dream successfully. i feel like everything is delayed for me. or i just simply stopped and took on a different direction. but, i know i wanted these things that i have now, the experiences and the knowledge. i just feel like i'm in slow motion. i know i pushed that button because of the past events that happened in my life. but, now, it got me all frustated because now i see that i'm being left behind. i don't feel regret though. no, i don't think this is regret. i just don't like to be left behind. it isn't too late for me, right? i can still move on. i can still do the things that i wanted and needed to do, my passions and my dreams. the avenues are there. i just have to look for them and actually act on them. i must think things through and have courage.

the other thing that has affected me so much right now is the direction of this "lovelife thing." where is it going? and why do the "wrong guys" keep coming to me? why do i say "wrong guys"? because they either have girlfriends or wives already. (please, stay away from me! go home to your wives and be with your girlfriends and stay there!) it was easier for me before when i didn't think about finding someone in my life, a partner, maybe a husband. i've always thought that i didn't need someone beside me. but, now, the gate has been opened and the flooding begins. i don't want to think about it but the idea keeps knocking on my head and possibly my .. ehem.. i can't even write it down, hmm... ok, my heart! there! i said it! *sigh* sometimes, i just don't want to go out or i'll stay in one place (which i usually do) so no one will catch me. i'll just run and do the things i want to do. no one will see me... just my trail. if anyone catches me, i hope he'll be ready for me. and hopefully, i'll be ready for him too.

... my dream: batanes ...

when I saw a feature on Batanes when I was in high school (waaayyy back), the images of that place never left my mind. i've always dreamt i would go there, someday. maybe live there, even for a short period of time, on my own. when i saw it, i felt like that place was magical. i felt like i would feel free there. as if, no one would care and let you be. no judgement, no pretenses. just being one with nature and being one with everything. i may just be romanticizing Batanes, but i truly think it is a wonderfully beautiful place.

that dream still hasn't left my mind. i feel like i am craving even more to go there. its a place to escape and maybe even a place to finding one's self. i think it is a need for me now to go there. i need to go there, soon. maybe i'll find what i have been searching for so long ... myself.