living....
i feel so helpless. my parents scolded me for not being able to pay the rent on time. what can i do? i did all the cost-cutting i can do but there are just not enough customers. there are still a lot of expenses but we tried to lower it. my aunt and i talked about it and we're trying to do some cost-cutting schemes already and we're truly saving up for that. i am so overwhelmed with so may responsibilities! i do the operations, some of the paperworks, managing 2 stores, and doing the marketing and pr, and managing the finances. what do they expect from me pa? that i would be superwoman? goodness! sometimes, i ask myself, am i still not doing a good job doing all those responsibilities at the same time? what else do they want me to do? cut myself in 3 so they could give me more responsibilities and work to do?
i am organizing my plans now to do what i really want to do. i will eventually move away and go on my own way. i never signed up for this. but, since this is family, i am doing everything that i can do. but, they are asking too much from me. i feel like i am being abused already. seriously, if this doesn't stop, i'll go crazy!
dreaming....
in my head, i wish i were at a beach somewhere, meditating or simply relaxing. clearing my mind and finding peace. no worries even for just a few days to retain my sanity. walking slowly on the beach or laughing away with a friend or two while munching some yummy food and drinking iced teas. i just want to relax.
i feel so helpless. my parents scolded me for not being able to pay the rent on time. what can i do? i did all the cost-cutting i can do but there are just not enough customers. there are still a lot of expenses but we tried to lower it. my aunt and i talked about it and we're trying to do some cost-cutting schemes already and we're truly saving up for that. i am so overwhelmed with so may responsibilities! i do the operations, some of the paperworks, managing 2 stores, and doing the marketing and pr, and managing the finances. what do they expect from me pa? that i would be superwoman? goodness! sometimes, i ask myself, am i still not doing a good job doing all those responsibilities at the same time? what else do they want me to do? cut myself in 3 so they could give me more responsibilities and work to do?
i am organizing my plans now to do what i really want to do. i will eventually move away and go on my own way. i never signed up for this. but, since this is family, i am doing everything that i can do. but, they are asking too much from me. i feel like i am being abused already. seriously, if this doesn't stop, i'll go crazy!
dreaming....
in my head, i wish i were at a beach somewhere, meditating or simply relaxing. clearing my mind and finding peace. no worries even for just a few days to retain my sanity. walking slowly on the beach or laughing away with a friend or two while munching some yummy food and drinking iced teas. i just want to relax.
